I've been awake for a while now.
You got me feelin' like a child now.
'Cause every time I see your bubbly face,
I get the tinglees in a silly place.
It starts at my toes.
And I crinkle my nose.
Wherever it goes, I always know,
That you make me smile.
Please stay for a while now.
Just take your time,
Wherever you go.
The rain is fallin' on my window pane,
But we are hidin' in a safer place.
Under covers stayin' dry and warm.
You give me feelings that I adore.
It start at my toes.
Makes me crinkle my nose.
Wherever it goes I always know,
That you make me smile.
Please stay for a while now.
Just take your time,
Wherever you go.
What am I gonna say,
When you make me feel this way?
I just... mmm.
And It starts at my toes.
Makes me crinkle my nose.
Wherever it goes I always know,
That you make me smile.
Please stay for a while now.
Just take your time,
Wherever you go.
Da da da da da da da da da da
Oo da doo doo doo doo dumm
Uu oom ba doom ba doo da doo da boo da doo da doo da dumm
Mm mm mm
I've been asleep for a while now.
You tuck me in just like a child now.
'Cause every time you hold me in your arms,
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth.
It starts at my soul,
And I lose all control.
When you kiss my nose,
The feeling shows.
'Cause you make me smile.
Baby, just take your time now,
Holdin' me tight.
Wherever, wherever, wherever you go.
Wherever, wherever, wherever you go.
Ooo... Wherever you go.
I always know.
'Cause you make smile.
Even just for a while.
Monday, October 26, 2009
Sigh. There's so much I wanna say, but I just cant seem to put it down into words.
Who's that girl, so rowdy but yet, she's got your attention. She made you go 'Wow', she made you want to know her. How you just seem to notice her at each visit and when she's not there, you were affected. How you came up with nicknames for her friends and her when you knew none of them, the way you looked at them moved. The excitement when you found her, when you knew her. Where'd it all gone to? Has it all disappeared into thin air? Have you ever wondered if you were still the same, if you've not known her. Maybe things should have just stayed at her; being the pokerdot girl. @
3:47 AM
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
-Believe in me and I will be there.
@
3:53 AM
First thing first! HAPPY! Why? The radio played my favorite song; Lost in emotions. And I'm glad Nelson and Fish told me. So i ran from the living room into my room to listen to it. But, I didn't move my hands.
I guess I'm growing out of mambo. My hands no longer have its say to move when retro music's playing anymore. I'd still go to mambo, cause' I'm too used to partying during midweek. And I don't go anywhere else because, I cannot fit in; I don't appreciate other musics anymore. =/
The dance festival performance is nearing. It's just a week away from now, there're still so much room for improvements. Watching the other group practice is like watching military training. They're really good, fun to watch. And I feel my team's rather far behind from them.
Gonna have a practice on thursday before going for the full dress rehearsal with the management, and since the performing date is near; weekend's burnt. Hopefully all would turn out well(:
Recently I've been really broke, like really cashless and all. The first time in my life, it's scary. Really. Realised how important it is to have funds, and you just can't live without it. Money makes the world goes round, isn't it. Bloody possession.
And it's kinda hard to get daddy nowadays. Don't know what's he up to. I think I should prolly start jobhunting again. Like seriously. Else how am I gonna survive and I've got too much time on hand. I'm starting to rot already, from all the bumming close to 1 and a half years? LOL
I wonder if anyone actually come to my blog sometimes. Hee. Alrights. I'm already in bed now. And I shall go back to cultivating my sleepiness. Shouldn't always stay up so late. Haha. Nights world! (:
At the beginning. @
3:21 AM
Saturday, October 17, 2009
There's alot of things that needs to be unleashed in me. But I just couldn't find the words. And it's simply vexing. How bottled up you are and yet there's no way of pouring out the contents.
Sighs.
Let the happy moments take over the tough times, grit your teeth and bear it through. Break a leg(: @
5:22 PM
Thursday, October 08, 2009
And I don't know how am I going to let these emotions out. It's all mixed up. I don't know what's real and what's not now, what's good and what's not etc. I can't tell the differences now, not anymore.
Maybe if the moment's right, whatever that's gonna happen is not gonna matter. But please, would you spare my weak heart now. It is tired and doesn't want to fight anymore.
It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return,but what is more painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let that person know how you feel.
A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you,to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go.
The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch swing with,never say a word,and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.
It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it,but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.
It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone,an hour to liike someone,and a day to love someone--but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.
Don't go for looks;they can deceive.Don't go for wealth;even that fades away.Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright.
Dream what you want to dream;go where you want to go;be what you want to be,because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.
Always put yourself in the other's shoes.If you feel that it hurts you,it probably hurts the person too.
A careless word may kindle strife;a cruel word may wreck a life;a timely word may level stress;a loving word may heal and bless.
The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything,they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.
Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear. When you were born,you were crying and everyone around you was smiling.Like your life so that when you die,you're the one smiling and everyone around you is crying. Treasure what you have before it's too late. Don't guard your heart too much, let it feel and experience; there's so much more to everything. Treat others like how you want to be treated. Lastly, live your life to the fullest. @
11:36 PM
Wednesday, October 07, 2009
- The Missy AnaBelle Jolyn C.
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4:35 AM
Alrightsbloggie, I'm not here to pile you with emo stuffs. I'm sorry, but I'm on the way of recovery; slowly but surely(:
I'm glad to have friends with me when I needed them so much. I'm sorry if I've been a bitch recently, haven't gotten a control over myself and upset-ed you all. Know that I'm grateful! I thank God for everyone of you that came into my life.
Without knowing, all of you left a print in my life. And I'm gonna remember it for life. 'Cause it's all of you who walked through with me.
I LOVE EVERYONE AROUND ME! :D
Anyway, I am embarking on a new journey of life; with all of you of course. Gonna be a better person. I wanna be the light that shines for all of you and be there whenever you need me(:
I'm putting everything in the past behind me, so, HELLOS THE CHIRPY ME! :D
I know it's a bit rubbish la, but I just wanna say; I'm picking myself up already(: Only problem is I'm having sleeping problems. It's quite bad, I barely sleep more than 3 hours each day. I don't know how did I survived, and no, I didn't nap.
I could only force my eyes closed and listen to the radio, hoping I would fall asleep. Sometimes it does work, but still the rest is minimal. Thus, I came up with this idea, I'm going to make myself freaking tired and I can sleep only in the night. Hope I would be able to succeed!
On a random note, I need to wee wee. So, off I go! NIGHTS EVERYONE! (:
@
4:19 AM
Monday, October 05, 2009
When you drop a glass or a plate on the ground, it makes a loud crashing sound. When a window shatters, a table leg breaks, or when a picture falls off the wall it makes a noise. But as for your heart, when it breaks, it's completely silent. You would think as it's so important it would make the loudest noise in the world, or even have some sort of ceremonious sound like the gong of a cymbal or the ringing of the bell. But it's so silent and you almost wish there was a noise to distract you from the pain.
If there's a noise, it's internal. It screams and no one hear it but you. It scream so loud your ears ring and your head aches. It trashes around in your chest like a great white shark caught in the sea; it roars like a mother bear whose cub has been taken. Tjat what it looks like and that's what it sounds like, a trashing, panicking, trapped great big beast, roaring like a prisoner to its own emotions. But that's the thing about love - no one is untouchable. It's as wild as that, as raw as an open flesh wound exposed to salty sea water, but when it actually breaks, it's silent. You're screaming on the insde and no one can hear it.
-Above was adapted from 'If you could see me now' by Cecelia Ahern. And it clearly explains how I'm feeling as of right now.
Love is always gentle and kind. It is never jealous. To love someone means to give and share. Not to hold, and let go in time. To devote to one's life and bond together for the moment of eternity..
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails. @
4:08 AM
Friday, October 02, 2009
post 712, I'm not happy. Not even a teeny weeny bit. I think I sucked, this is really a hurting world and I don't fit. Take me away, to wherever I might be from. I'm coming clean.
I couldn't remember much about my childhood days, it all seems so blurred. Things that I remembered were the things that are so often talked about. I had to go to bed at 8pm every night, and keep my toys in order so I wouldn't get scolded. It's time for homework after dinner everyday, and television wasn't something I come much contact to.
Things started getting better when we moved. Only that I really misses Gonggong alot, all those time spent with him. Till now, he lives in me. I hope he's doing good at wherever he is. I know he's with me at times, I can feel him. I love him, till the last breathe.
Daddy's always away for work. Never have that of a time for us, give and take. For the life we're leading now, dad's just got to slogged harder. He's the only person in the world, who would give just anything I ever wanted to me. His love for me was so much more that I could ever asked for.
While mummy's in charge of the boys, she didn't really much showed how I meant to her. Sometimes she would vent her anger on me. Just because I am the apple in my father's life, it was like a sore in her eyes. I took it all in stride, for I'm willing to take it all for my family. I love them with my life.
My brothers and I may not seems close in any bit. But deep down, we all know. We're a family and we stick around together. Quarrels are inevitable, hurtful words often used, even fights. In just a matter of time, we'll all be fine again.
Till here for now. I'll come back with more. @
4:41 PM
-Believe in me and I will be there.
- The Missy AnaBelle Jolyn C.