# Anabelle Jolyn
# 4th May
# Her Daddy's Princess
# dorty_blurry_jolyn@hotmail.com (friendster)
# ask me for my MSN


# The Most High
# Family
# Friends
# Being a missy girl.
# Those who're hunky-dory to me


# Feeling negative.
# Things that don't go the right way.
# Calls and texts not being respond.
# Being admonish.
# Backaches.


# Make wishes/dreams all come true for me.
# Be myself.
# More time for everything.
# All to be healthy and happy.
# Him*

i think i've got depression.
thanks to those who showed their care and concern last night,
especially to naush,
who texted me from texas.

maybe i should seek treatment,
go to a shrink,
and all.

but i'm afraid,
what if i'm really sick?
gosh.

anyway,
there's nothing that i could care any lesser now.
i've got nothing to worried about,
just me,myself and i.
nobody would give 2 damns about me.

i've just got so enough of the world and life.
all so blardy tired and sick,
i wish i'm not here at all.

if it's all a dreams,
let me wake up now and go back to the life i used to lead.
even though it's poor and sick,
i'm willing,
so long as everyone sticks together.

if it's all a story,
write an ending now.
there's no need for continuation,
enough read.
hope you did enjoy.

Be gone before my 18th.
@ 4:31 PM


it's gonna be a year soon,
just a month more.
last year,
when i was celebrating my 17th birthday,
we were together and you're there with me.

this year,
i don't know.
we've already part our ways,
but still kept in contact.

i'm gonna plan my birthday soon again;
for this year.
and you're invited for sure,
hope you'll be there.
(:

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wo ye yi jing hui xin le,
bu qu zai xiang na mo duo.
dou yi bu zhong yao le,
jiu fang pi chi yi tiao sheng lu ba.
wo men zhi you le.

ni ye bu zai hu wo de chun zai,
wo ye kan kai le.
zai jing wo xia qu mei shen meh jie guo de,
jiu dang fa shen de shi qing duo mai zai xin li,
sui ji yi man man de fei qu.

wo yi jing ba suo you duo gei ni le,
mei shen mo liu xia de yue de.
xian zai,
dao dai zhe shuo ge zhui shi he wo le.

[[ wo shou gou le deng dai ni suo wei de an pai
shuo de wei lai dao di duo jiu cai lai
zong shi yao lai bu ji cai zhi dao wo ke ai
wo xiang yi lai er ni que dou bu zai

ying gai kai xin de di dai ni gei de quan shi kong bai
yi ge ren jia ri fa dai zhao bu dao ren pei wo kan hai
wo zai xing fu de men wai que yi zhi dou jin bu lai
ni lei ji gei de shang hai wo shi zhen de hen nan shi huai

zhong yu kan kai ai hui bu lai
er ni zong shi tai wan ming bai
zui hou cai ba hua shuo kai
ku zhe qiu wo liu xia lai
zhong yu kan kai ai hui bu lai
wo men mian qian tai duo zu ai
ni de shou que fang bu kai
ning yuan mei chu xi qiu wo bie li kai

ni zong shi yao wo guai man man ji hua jiang lai
wo de yan lei que yi zhi diao xia lai
guo qu zen me jiao dai ni gai gei de xin lai
bei ni qin shou huan huan tui ru xuan ya
cong wo lian shang de cang bai
kan dao ji yi man xia lai
guo qu tian mi zai dao dai
zhi shi gan jue yi jing bu zai

er wo dui ni de qi dai
bei ni yi ci ci shuai huai
yi jing sui cheng tai duo kuai
yao zen me ping cou gen chong lai

zhong yu kan kai ai hui bu lai
er ni zong shi tai wan ming bai
zui hou cai ba hua shuo kai
ku zhe qiu wo liu xia lai
zhong yu kan kai ai hui bu lai
wo men mian qian tai duo zu ai
ni de shou que fang bu kai
ning yuan mei chu xi qiu wo bie li kai ]]

guo le,
wo men shi guo qu le.
(:
@ 4:47 PM


daddy's call woke me up in the afternoon,
he was coming home.
thus i got up,
prepared and did a little chores,
and set out with him.

we were supposed to go have laksa,
when mummy called and made a fuss,
saying we should all go out and have dim sum;
with her mother.

i never like the idea of that,
always making me feel so damn pissed.
and i was so hungry that i could eat a cow,
still wanted to go all the way back to jurong when we're already at clementi;
to pick her up,
go home and to town.

that's such a waste of our time and fuel!
it all resulted in me;
gastric.

so my meal of the day was at imperial restaurant,
takashimaya.
shanghai dim sum and some side dishes,
well,not some la.

you know my family,
when we always feast out,
the amount of food ordered was 'WOW'.
LOLS.

bill mounted to about $320,
not very expensive,
like the usual amount when we dined there.

walked around for digestion,
wanted to head to lucky plaza,
but my mother's mother could walk much.

so we went home instead,
today isn't totally enjoyable la.
hassles~

i've marked all the homeworks of my tutees,
and it's monday again tomorrow;
that means work!

The day is nearing.
@ 8:52 PM




@ 2:25 AM


oh no!
i guess i can only work for 3 months in this current office.
i'm always skipping work,
and i don't have the motivation to work.
):

i've got 3 appointments for this week,
and i'm slacking already.
work's really boring,
doing the same stuffs over and over again.

i'm feeling oh-so-tired now,
gonna catch some rest again later.
and yes,
i skipped work again today.

twice in a week already;
wednesday too.
bummer~

ya,
i went to dinner with May at the market near our place on wednesday,
afterwhich procceed to singing session!

we feasted as always.
LOL.
all the sambal food;
kang kong,mussels and stingray.
not forgetting sugarcane juice!

we sing our lungs off for 4 hours,
and the bill was not what we expected.
but well,
we paid it anyway.

shopping,high-tea;
i want!

beach,
i'm coming for you,
soon!

Not the one till the end.
@ 2:34 PM


yes,
today is my first day of really getting down to work;
making calls.

i made a total of 69 calls to the listing companies i'm assigned to,
and got 3 appointments!!!
in just 4.5 hours.
and i still've got time to call up other people and chat.
hahas.

work's pretty slack and good,
only that there'll always be office politics.
can't escape from it,
just go to work promptly and leave.

i started work on time,
despite my manager went off on urgent leave;
as he's sick.

my admin lady passed me a list of numbers to call,
and i did a little sorting,
afterwhich start work and on.

hopefully,
i'll get appointments everyday,
and my sales person would clinch every deal.
earn big bucks!!
LOLS.

might be meeting up with may tomorrow after work,
to be confirmed again.
so,
now till the next post!

Out you go!
@ 12:25 AM




@ 12:52 AM


today's the last day of training!
i'll be getting down to work tomorrow,
if what mark and the others say were true.
hahas.

been a slacking day in the office again,
but this time round,
i went to sat with rahmah,
and we chatted quite a bit.

only like say 2 hours left,
i'm attached to siti;
she's not all that nice afterall i heard.

took the super long bus ride home again,
and i didn't felt sick at all!!
so proud of myself,
maybe i'll slowly overcome all thes motion sickness.

yeah!
(:

was feeling way deep negative yesterday.
i didn't know why either,
i was feeling so sad that i could cry buckets.
i bite my tongue and held back my tears,
i'm strong, i tell myself!

as for today,
i felt much better than yesterday.
i'm slowly coming back,
hang on!!!

Seasons may change,winter to spring.
@ 12:04 AM


can you just get the hell out of my life?
haven't you had enough of me so far,
till now?
we both got a piece of each other already,
and that should be enough.

then,
you can continue performing all the talents that you possesses.
i'm sure there'll be even more preys for you to hunt,
'cause every once in a while,
there's one.

and recently quite a few i must say,
i've said that i'm not going to care and etc,
i'm already doing it now.

i believe that the mouth speaks the abundance of the heart.
thus i kept telling myself and the others,
that it's all bullshit and ending.
i can feel the calling;
it's coming.

you self-centre-d freak,
WHERE IS THE HONESTY AND COMPROMISING??
I HATE YOU!
GET OUT OF MY SIGHT!

I'll be fine.
@ 5:15 PM


so it's confirmed.
i really saw you at vivocity that day,
today with my family.

mum and the brothers were so nosy,
they walked out of the way,
went round the corners to catch a glimspe of you.

know why?
'cause they all know about that incident of you snogging,
in front of so many people on my side at my party;
with him.

no comments were made though,
'cause it's bad to talk ill of others.
just know it inside ourselves,
somethings shouldn't be said.

you maybe be a nice girl,
but just too bad.
you can't blame it on me,
i don't blame it on you too.

'cause it's his bad,
you're just a pawn of his,
to agitate me.

but well,
you're blessed;
with a good live and people around you.

know your limits,
and live a great life.
God bless!
(:

ps: i'm still negative towards you.
@ 1:35 AM


you unfaithful jerk!
may you burn in hell!

poor girls out there,
just too bad that you've met such a person.

don't say blame it all on that shit,
'cause it's also your fault;
it takes two hands to clap.

it's been lies all along,
from the very start.
just that all of us are such a fool,
too blind to differ it out.

now's not too late,
we can still back out.
but there's nothing we could do,
just stand and watch it out.

I hate you,fuck off and die.
@ 12:20 PM


today's the third day at work,
and i didn't go.
i texted my lady boss,
and applied off.

daddy's home today,
we went to clementi for lunch,
and jurong point to shop around.
dinner was just the food from the stall downstairs,
instead of the buffets i was craving for.

daddy bought me a long pants,
he said that it's nice and i should wear that to work.
cost only $20 instead of $50,
discounts!
hahas.

well,
actually before i started work,
i've gone on a shopping spree.
hees.

thanks to Rem-y,
he accompained me,
it's was very last minute,
and he's so nice la.

he's not even late,
and waited for me to arrive.
really helpful and patient too,
swweett~

i bought a spagetti black top from zara,
a blue-ish green tube top from dorothy perkin,
a short and skirt from bugis street.

i've been spending alot this two weeks,
i should save up a little.
and i'm so looking forward to my first tuition pay!!
weeets~~

let's talk about the second day of work.
i'm now still under training,
and i'm studying under edward.
he's also a tele-consultant,
and have been in the company for about 6 months or more.

second of work is so boring can;
i message a few people and complained.
(:

i merely sat beside edward for 4.5 hours,
and do NOTHING.
i didn't felt sleepy though,
and i kept munching on chocolates.

siti;
another colleage who've been around for quite some time too,
said that it's only after 2 weeks then we'll really get down to work,
that's like so looooonnnnggggg can.

was frigging cold in the office yesterday,
'cause it's been raining heavily.
i got drenched in the rain after work,
despite having a brolly;
i shared it with rahman.

sat in the freezing bus for an hour plus to get to jurong point,
met may for dinner;
FEAST!

bumped into yalun and jacky outside jurong point,
she's interested in my job too,
like may.
but dunno if they can work short period nots.
hmms~

walked around to digest abit from the heavy dinner we had,
and i made plans to head to st james power station.
went home to drop my stuffs and cab down to town,
picked up connie and rushed down to st james.

met michelle and her friends at the entrance,
matthew and gang came along too not long after.
daddy was there to bring me in,
but too bad;
it's a private party.

left around 1 plus,
took cab home.
tired out,
but slept at about 5am.

bumped into a few people here and there in the club,
quite a nice place.
but wasn't in the mood,
thus did not enjoy.

i'm exhausted already.
blog again.
post's super random today,
sorry!

Fuck You Bastard.
@ 8:05 PM


just the first day of work is bringing me down already,
feeling all so tired!

got to office at 2pm,
but manager's not in till about 2.45pm.
luckily there's Rahmah with me,
she's joining the company with me.

she's a mother of 3,
about 20 years older than me,
and lives in bishan.

quite a nice lady i must say,
'cause just on the first day,
she kept a look out on me already.

had a theory meeting for 2 hours,
and a short 45 minutes break thereafter.
headed off to anson road's showroom,
tested out the machines and learn more about it.

knocked off early at 6pm,
walked to tanjong pagar mrt station with rahman and head home.
was dying of hunger when i reached home,
thus got mummy and andersen to eat out.

we ate at the market nearby,
and i ate alot alot.
shocked everyone la.
LOLS.

i walked home with andersen while mummy went off for her dance class,
feeling all so bloated.
napped the moment i got home,
and hit the dreamland once my head landed on the pillow.

i promised leggies i'll go to bed and get rest at 2.30am.
time's closing in now,
in case he's spot checking,
i should be off now.

hope tomorrow will be a better day!
ciaos~
@ 2:08 AM


just how many more times are you going to lie to me?
how many times had you lie?
i don't even know if you meant everything you said that comes out of your mouth.
you blardy farking liar.

don't blame me for being so cold,
'cause that's what you've made out of me.
i'd tried to be nice and giving,
you just took it for granted.

and even dare to flare up when you knew what you did,
i'm hinting you if you doesn't know;
'cause i had my ways of knowing what you did.

you thought that i was accusing you,
and being irritating,
you just didn't know that i knew.

i no longer feel as much as i used to,
when i found out the things.
you just don't freaking have a stand anymore,
and i'm gonna fly free.

Stay away.
@ 1:37 AM


i'm going to work soon!
wish me luck!
first day!

feeling all so excited,
but!
i'm a little sleepy.

and staying home seems so nice!
argh!

i'm a office girl now.
LOLS.

Empty promises.
@ 1:03 PM


i'm now blogging with the feeling of uncountable ants crawling in your leg;
numb!
hahas.
i guess i've been sitting a quite a while,
not moving thus it happened.

i'm going to start work tomorrow,
and i'm going to hit the club tonight!
luckily work's at 2pm,
so i can catch a few winks.

i'm not feeling all so well these days;
been feeling giddy and head hurts more than a little.
maybe it's the lack of sleep ya?
gotta drink more water too.
(:

i've got mental block now,
can't think of anything to blog.

chores are piling on me,
so i better go do them first;
before that woman comes after me.

till the next post.
<3
@ 1:23 PM


ahh.
i just remembered!

andersen's teacher called from school to my mom today!
complaints!

he failed his CAs,
been not handing in work,
talking too much in class,
etc etc.

thus mummy went to the market today,
to the bank nearby,
buy us brunch,
and most importantly!

buy teeny weeny little frogs!
3 for $1!
like OMGOODNESS la.

it's to scare my youngest brother.
hahas.
what a weird way mom thought of.
cutes~

i'm not gonna lay here and wait.
@ 2:28 AM


i've just blog-hop a little,
i love reading others blog.
it's so nice to know that they're doing well,
staying joyful and all.

it somehow bright me up too,
if they're all good and nice.
but it brings me down with them too,
if they're facing problems and feeling emo.

it's all just the parts and parcels of life,
a phrase of life that everyone goes through.
i hope that the happiness would last forever,
and the sadness would go in less than a split second that happened.

lionel's my brother's new name,
now cloud's out.
like duh?
he'd never stick to a name before,
and doesn't follow the letter 'a' in the family.

so the family went to vivocity today!
daiso,ben&jerry,crystal jade;
spent a wholesome amount today.

dinner alone cost $320,
shopping at daiso mounted to $60.
daddy gave us monies;
and that too burnt a hole.

the 5 of us sat at ben & jerry's,
sharing a 3 scooped sundae ice cream.
how nice is that picture?
i just hearts family day la!!

((:
but well,
compared to the past years' family days,
i would like to go back to the past very much.
those memories~

when we were still staying with the grams,
daddy and mommy worked late into the night,
sometimes even till morning.

i would sleep in the living room with gonggong,
and if daddy comes home early,
he'll pull the mattress that i'm sleeping on into the room.
put the covers on and kiss me goodnight.

dad started sailing the seas and coming home once in a while when i was still very young,
about 5 or 6?
at then,
he still had plenty of time on hand to come home.

as we moved to the current place,
daddy would sometimes come home at the wees hours.
i would always know when he come home and enter my room,
i can feel his presence.
till then,
he would still kiss me goodnight and help me put the blankets on.

sometimes,
i wish i was still the little girl of his.
being able to be carried around in his arms,
popping far too many cheeries into my mouth when he bring me along to his boys' night out.
those were the days that seems so far away.

it made me not wanting to grow up,
but remain as that daddy's princess always.
remember the time where you've gotta borrow cash from your friend just to buy toys for me,
walk to and back from work?
we were so poor back then.

mommy was always caning us,
and we're always locked in the room;
'cause granny didn't really like us.
it's all over now.

but papi,
can all these sweetness come back?
except for the bad times we've been through.
you've not been home for a night like for eons.

i long to know more about you,
i'm sorry for the times i've let you down and made you cry.
know that,
I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU DADDY.

i'm sorry readers,
for this post became too emotional all of a sudden.
i just can't stop it like how the tears kept flowing,
as i type.

so alright,
on the track now.

i should go to bed soon,
tomorrow's an early day to start with.
i'm looking forward to tutoring my girls on saturday already!
(:

i'm currenly listening to mia's favorite song;
I don't like to sleep alone-Paul Anka.
I LOVE YOU TOO MUMMY.

thanks for all these moments,
till now;
for standing by and love me.
it's just too much for words to say.

Hit rewind,and pause at our favorite parts.
@ 12:56 AM


i got a call just now.
it's from eileen;
a staff from CAL-LITE,
the company i went for interview yesterday.

she told me to go to the company on next monday,
at 2pm.
there's no second interview,
so that means i got the job?!

hees.
there'll be a probation of 3 months though,
if things don't go too well,
i'll be out of the company.
):

i'm kind of happy when i got the call,
and excited to start training next monday.
but at the same time,
i'm afraid,
of the people i'll be working with and everything about the job.

don't know how well would it go,
but let's pray for the best!
(:

i'm going to shower now,
daddy's home and he's going to bring us out.
brother need to go to nayang poly and the CMPB;
some army place to get his passport stamped.

mummy and him's going to thailand end of ext month,
i'm not going along 'cause they're going to the mountains and pray.
i'll stay home and babysit the youngest brother then.

so long~
@ 1:14 PM


i'm sleeping in to really late these days;
near noon.
i've been hitting the sack really late too,
for instance,
5am yesterday.

went to e centre @ redhill for an interiew today,
hope it all went well,
and i'll get the job.

it's kinda attractive i would say.
$750 a month,
5 working days,
2pm-6.30pm.

post is tele-consultant,
fix 2 appointments a day,
and if the deal is clinched,
there'll be incentives.

how's all that?
one bad thing was;
i didn't know how to go there,
and i took bus 197 for freaking 45 minutes?

gosh.
i can't travel much,
i'll get sick!
):

so after the interview,
cabbed to town for movie.
was late by half an hour,
watched history boys.

it's just rated so-so by me,
maybe 'cause i missed the start and didn't really know what was happening.
it's a show about a group of boys and their teacher.

carrin couldn't turn up for the movie,
thus GTO and i proceed with the plans.
it was his treat,
quite a nice person.

he accompanied me to walk all the way from cineleisure to plaza singapura,
buy some tibits and off to meet connie and elaine.
train to clark quay and munch!

reached home about 12.15am,
showered;
smelling of fags.
wanna puke!

i'm getting a tad tired easily these days,
i guess it's because i've lost interest in everything,
and getting more and more lazy.
bad bad thing~

i'm logging off already,
brother wanna use the lappie,
and i'm going to read a little before crashing.

so nights everyone,
hope you enjoyed your day!

Where did it all gone to?
@ 1:05 AM


i'm so gonna trim my toe nails,
putting my feet into the new pumps i bought yesterday,
was hell hurting.

as it's pointed,
my toes were squashed,
and being that my toe nails were all too long;
the friction caused blisters to occurred on my toes.

it's super painful la.
):

anyway,
singapore's struck with earthquake today.
even though i didn't feel it,
but it's in the news,
and not a normal thing that happens in singapore.

ahhh.
i'm feeling so random today.
don't wanna blog le.

byebye.
hope all is well.

Pull through 6 months?
@ 9:02 PM


i met up with carrin yesterday,
it's been so long since the last time we see each other.

5pm and we're both in town,
to swensens for early dinner;
seafood tomato chowder and steaks.

and heeren to look for connie!
surprise surprise!!
thanks for the cash girl!(:
hees.

dragged our feet to far east and shopped a little.
both of us bought shoes;
i got a pointed-pumps,while carrin got a one inch pointed heels.

walked around but couldn't find anything more that catches my eyes,
thus decided to head to plaza singapura.
we both got a tee with saying,
and carrin proceed to buy 2 more tubes.

it's for her to go club,
as she's thrown all her clubbing gears out.
now,
she need new ones.

LOLS.

oh!
i bought something for pat too!
something she had her eyes on sometime ago,
and when i went back there to look for it,
it's the last piece already.

i'm so lucky!
gonna be in town at 2.30pm,
with pat.

this week;
monday-out with carrin.
tuesday-out with pat.
wednesday-movie with carrin.
friday-out with connie.
saturday-tution.
sunday-to club?

hope that it's gonna be a fruitful week!
and somebody's starting work soon,
i'm getting my life back!

In the end,it wouldn't be you.
@ 11:38 AM


i know i'm a little evil posting this up,
but i can't help it.
it's just so *roll eyes*.

"Haix.Something i regret losing such a good gf like you.Anyway hope you're getting a good life then.Jerry here. Take care good night."

that's the exact words in the message that he sent me,
at 10:50pm.
we've broke up like more than a year ago,
and he's still pestering me indirectly.

gosh.
what's more,
he's got a girlfriend already.
and he's always thinking that his girl is possessive.

looks like he's got a taste of his own medicine yea?
just like what he's used to be in the past,
when we're together.

the message he sent over just now,
turns me off.
his language,his personality.
or perhaps everything about him turns me off;
even at the mention of his name.

that's how bad.
he's got a very bad impression left,
'cause of the things he did.

let's not talk about him anymore,
since my day's not all that good.
i'm feeling negative,
don't ask why;
'cause i don't even know myself.

wake up,
bathe and cabbed over to granny's place with my family,
around 1 plus in the noon.

had our lunch there,
and headed out to get some stuffs at toa payoh.
went back to granny's,
and hit the sack till 7pm.

dinner's steamboat!
just like all the previous years,
only that daddy's at work,
and not there.

we had yu shen again!
everybody's tossing it out of the plate;
laughing and having fun.

reached home at nearly 10pm;
after everything's done at granny's.
till the next post for now!~

I'm left hanging here alone,all by myself.
@ 10:58 PM


i do get sea sick!
):
that's totally not good la,
i can't survive on the seas in this case.

i still hope that someday,
i would board a cruise and go tour somewhere,
and i would be able to accompany daddy during work for some time on the ships.

but now,
it seems so glum.
how to get sea sick treated anybody knows?!

let's talk about my today!
woke up at 9am,
showered and trained to chua chu kang;
for my brunch and cab.

it's the first tuition session!
i'm tutoring these two sweet little girls;
Yi Shan and Yi Ting.

i got there half an hour late though,
'cause i didn't know how to get to the place.
and little did i know that they've got the dates mixed up,
thus not prepared for tuition.

afterall,
it was a great success.
they're both nice;
maybe it's just the first session,
and they've yet to show their colors.
LOLS.

came home and rest for a while,
before sorting some worksheets for my tutees.
went out for dinner on a boat at marina south;
that's the way i know i've got sea sick!

that makes me,
car sick,sea sick,bus sick etc.
oh no!
i'm such a frail person!
)):

the dining on the boat was nice,
despite the sickness i'm feeling,
and i had margaritas there too!
it's a different taste from the usual ones i had at cafe iguanas,
they uses coarse sugar;
nice!

drove to sentosa,
and had a walk on the island;
the part that's gonna be tear down for IR.

such a pity,
it's a pretty place!
i'mma visit sentosa,
and have a one day trip around one of these day,
very soon;
within 3 weeks!

there's curfew implemented at home now,
doors will be locked from inside at 12mn.
if you're late,
you'll need to stay the night out.

and if that happens for more than 3 times in a month,
there'll be no allowance.
anyway my allowance is already damn pitiful la,
$30 -$50 a week.
-.-

so i got home at 12.30mn just now,
doors not locked yet;
mum's still watching her korean dramas,
so phew~
i'm safe!
hees.

been feeling kind of sick these few days,
it's all regarding the head;
headaches,dizziness etc.

gotta turn in earlier,
and have proper rest,
exercise too!
so i'll feel better and healthy!!
(:

it's the last day of chinese new year tomorrow,
and there'll be dinner at granny's.
gonna open my angbaos tomorrow night too!
woots!

okays,
later today i mean;
tonight.

Individually.
@ 1:06 AM


so ya,
it was a day out.
we went to eat at bukit timah;
beauty world.

i think there's something wrong with the fried kway tiao we had,
my family and i were feeling sick after having it;
even though i already felt sick since the beginning of the day.
thus was feeling sick all day long till dinner;
at 7pm.

drove cloud to bugis junction to collect his pay check,
before heading to granny's place for visit,
and bring them out for dinner.

cold cold weather today!
freezing!
hid under the covers once i got to granny's,
and draped cloud's jacket over before stepping out of the house.

ages since granny and gonggong joined us for dinner.
we went to the resturant that the whole family's oh-so-familar-with;
'cause my parents' wedding was held there,
and gonggong's birthday celebrations were also always held there.
price paid was alright;
$200.

drop gonggong and granny home,
while i alight at bugis,
and the rest went home.

walked around a bit,
and went to browse some novels.
i wanna buy that 'ugly' novel!!
seems niceeeee~

it's about a lost childhood,
based on real life story.
i'm into books like that aye!

boarded a train back to jurong,
met up with a few friends,
bumped into shaheera and kenneth+rongyuan at jurong east!
it's a small small world!!

should have a gathering soon,
missing those boisterious people of 4B'05!

gonna tuck in soon,
giving tuition at 10am later.
must have ample rest,
'cause it's 4 hours long!

I wish i live in fantasies.
@ 12:56 AM


mom's a bitch,
always have been.
i think she's so used to it,
that she can't live a day without being one.

that's very bad for her children though,
it makes us wanna pull our hair out of our head.
her daily wake up screams,
her naggings and etc.

oh gosh.
i don't know when can i put up with it till.

always waking me up in the early morning to do chores,
and causing me to get terrible headaches everyday;
not enough rest and all.

daddy's home now,
we're going to eat,
and have a day out perhaps.

and ya,
i've diverted my calls.
no one can reach me now,
plus i think there's nobody gonna get me too.

good day everyone!
(:
@ 2:40 PM


i've dug out some pictures,


and here i am;


uploading them so others could view.
-those party days with the crew.

-some's missing there.

and my nails!

they're growing longer and longer,

discomfort felt!



i've been scratching myself badly,

and soon my nails are going to break again!

gonna go get them treated,

and paint them for protection.


-lastly,me;before my curly bangs.

It's just all lies.
@ 9:09 PM


there're so much things i wanna do and need to do!!!
like getting my shampoos and conditioners before they run out,
conditioning the weeds growing on my head before they dry out,
bag a new cellphone,
meet-ups with lots of people,
but most importantly,
look for a stable job!!!!

i'm missing everybody in my life,
can't wait to see them before i fly out.

i'mma keeping up my spirits everyday,
nothing should bring me down!

i believe the world's beautiful,
despite all those horrific people doing harms around.

my life's gonna change!!!
weee~

<3s>
i'm off,period.

You don't see me.

@ 6:05 PM

thanks for the talk that lead to nowhere yesterday,
appreciate it though;
even if you were pissed by it,
'cause time was spent and wasted.

thanks for being honest to me when i asked about melissa;
though nothing much came out of it anyway,
but still i know that she's been in you all the time,
and you hope that the both of you would be together again.

actually,
i don't give too much of a damn about anything now.
plus since i know that the fact of you both contacting again,
i'm just 'looking after you' till things are as you wished.

don't tell me that you're angry with me believing what others said,
or i bitch too much;
i'm a girl alright,
it's just the nature.

it's just because i know how you're like,
and the others got nothing against us;
so why would they wanna lie?

what's with you getting so worked up?
'cause you've got spotted on?
hahs.
things different already.

Can you love tonight?

@ 12:41 AM