I've been awake for a while now.
You got me feelin' like a child now.
'Cause every time I see your bubbly face,
I get the tinglees in a silly place.
It starts at my toes.
And I crinkle my nose.
Wherever it goes, I always know,
That you make me smile.
Please stay for a while now.
Just take your time,
Wherever you go.
The rain is fallin' on my window pane,
But we are hidin' in a safer place.
Under covers stayin' dry and warm.
You give me feelings that I adore.
It start at my toes.
Makes me crinkle my nose.
Wherever it goes I always know,
That you make me smile.
Please stay for a while now.
Just take your time,
Wherever you go.
What am I gonna say,
When you make me feel this way?
I just... mmm.
And It starts at my toes.
Makes me crinkle my nose.
Wherever it goes I always know,
That you make me smile.
Please stay for a while now.
Just take your time,
Wherever you go.
Da da da da da da da da da da
Oo da doo doo doo doo dumm
Uu oom ba doom ba doo da doo da boo da doo da doo da dumm
Mm mm mm
I've been asleep for a while now.
You tuck me in just like a child now.
'Cause every time you hold me in your arms,
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth.
It starts at my soul,
And I lose all control.
When you kiss my nose,
The feeling shows.
'Cause you make me smile.
Baby, just take your time now,
Holdin' me tight.
Wherever, wherever, wherever you go.
Wherever, wherever, wherever you go.
Ooo... Wherever you go.
I always know.
'Cause you make smile.
Even just for a while.
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
i guess it's too late, it really is. i couldn't feel anymore.
i've strayed now, then it wasn't me. i'm confused!
i'm waiting though, as if some miracle would happen. i pray that mirales are true, i need it badly.
nuff of these nonsense. today i went to visit my grandfather(mum's side), it's terrible seeing him in this state.
my heart goes out to him, he couldn't talk, and couldn't really move.
this is the first time i'm there to visit him since he got admitted last week. he seems really weak now, and i could see tears in his eyes.
the doctor told us that we could bring him home this weekend, family's sorta making plans for him to leave us already. 'cause the doctor can't do anything to treat him further, it's just the parts and parcels of life.
i'm not getting too emotional about it, i know he used to dote on the kids alot when we're younger, but somehow, the relationship's strained.
but i do pray for the better for my dear granddad, please let all these sufferings end Lord. @
11:00 PM
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10:05 PM
don't you think that sometimes things just come too late? it'd happened quite a number of times to me, no one would like the idea of that. but well, things don't always go your way.
today, i passed by some places and the feeling was so strong. i don't know if it's a good or bad thing, but certainly i hope it's a good one.
i sorta keep mentioning to my parents, i don't want all i'm feeling to be one sided. i wanna know how others feel about it, no longer would i want to lose everyone due to my ignorance.
i don't know what to do, really. it's tough for me, i want to be selfish; to make myself happy.
but when i think about the others, i just could do it. i know i should do somethihng about it, else it's gonna turn worst.
i fear, too much. i tried to escape, but at the end of the day; i'm still there, at the same old place.
It all sucks big time! @
9:39 PM
Monday, October 29, 2007
Mr Andy Tay; who's away in Australia for reservist, says this picture is nice, and me!
Mikey;
the mister nice guy and me,
slacking in T3.
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8:28 PM
got home from work, played with my doggy, ate and got online at the same time.
feeling quite tired, guess i'll go take a nap; 'cause i wanna be awake to watch 'nightmares and dreamscape' at 10pm, on channel 5.
i hope time passes faster, and i have the strength to overcome so many so many things. i really wanna do it.
Sometimes we're just like a fool being played around. @
8:21 PM
i'm at work now, still got an hour to go!
was so bored and tired that i fell asleep on my desk, meet another new colleage; Heng Hwu.
So now there is; Arlene,Jessie,Charrisa,Lai Yee,Heng Hwu and me! in the customer service department.
about 50 minutes more to go before i can go home, mummy cooked today! *hungry~
it's rather busy at work today, but i still had the time to msn! LOLS.
gotta go home and get some pictures up too, before they turn into mould in my files. that'd always been the case.
i'm not obessess with myself, just that the pictures that i upload are taken some time ago, with no time to put all of it up, i could only blog it up one by one.
bah. i don't know where i'm heading in this entry. but i know i sure do miss some people! back to work for now! @
4:56 PM
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2:05 AM
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1:54 AM
oh oh. i didn't blog on friday! =/ i'm sorry people who came to check for updates.
i can feel the monday blues sinking on already, and andy's in australia for his reservist for 3 weeks!!! BOOS!
i wanna slowly slowly decorate up my workdesk when the trail's over! well, i'm working in a call center, under the campaign of canon as customer service consultant.
officially starting handling calls last friday, my section were kinda worried that i couldn't handle, in the end they're just amazed. LOLS.
but! there're lots of things to take note of, products to refer and look through. as time goes by, it'll be much more simple. (:
company's kinda strict with handphones, you cannot leave it in view and use it, it must be hidden at all times on silent mode.
'cause they're afraid that the company's database will leak out, and when clients come to visit, it's just inapporiate.
it gets kinda boring in office too, when there's no calls and nothing to do. so i'm gonna bring a book along; this case i can read and pass time. lalas~
yea, wednesday was mambo at zouk. not that much into it though, but still i went with Andy,William,Trainman,Belgrand and Wendy. got picked up a few times, and the night ended at 4.30am.
couldn't go to work the next day, feeling unwell. been like this recently, and worried a lot of people. =/
thursday was horrid, it left me bruises all over. everyone around me were so upset by it. ):
i love my last weekend! (:
it's dress down on fridays. so i wore very causually to work, and met up with the #lust people after work for dinner and coffee.
wasn't feeling very happy about it, as somethings happened before the outing. and i felt like i'm the cause of it.
saturday was spent fruityly(i guess i just made a new word) nice! woke up, rushed through my things and got to bugis. walked around, and man, do i walk much this weekend! hahas.
dinner at vivocity's mussel guy's pretty nice, filling~ after that window shopped around before getting to town; met up with may and ryan at lido for coffee.
nice catching up and laughing at all the random stuffs, i hope everyone enjoyed themselves though. went separate ways at about 3, brought home that lovely stitch!! aww~
wasn't it sweet that i fell asleep with it in my arms? i'll do that everyday! poor hairy stitch only got chance to watch, 'cause i've got sensative nose.
visited the new terminal at the airport after sending Andy off for his reservist in australia; the T3. thanks to mikey! 'cause he's got the pass for me, and showed me around. (:
headed to far east for shopping spree with may, and we got some great deals! WOOTS!!!! (:
i bought a dress and a pair of heels; whereas may bought so many things! it feels like we've got a steal! LOLS.
8.30pm, may took a bus while i took a train home. tireds~
kinda looking foward to go to work tomorrow, but dread having nothing to do. lunchers're always alone. =/
Show me the way someone. @
12:54 AM
Friday, October 26, 2007
i know i should blog. but i didn't have the time to do so, i promise i'll do it tomorrow; later on friday.
gotta slp for now, it's 2.10am already. waking up at 7am to go to work at 8am.
so long~ @
2:07 AM
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
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1:42 AM
i woke up on time today, but was late for work! hahas.
informed my team leader, and luckily programma starts at 10am. so no need to report to office earlier.
yea, am on programme for the whole week. gonna learn the things that're required for work, and get used to the place.
so far so good, as it's still the first day; i can't sat anything much.
but! i've got a 2 hours lunch break, and knock off an hour early. isn't that nice?! (:
hence i head over to granny's and meet up with the family, afterwhich we proceed to dinner at the nearby coffeeshop.
grandpa(mother's side) had a fall at home, and is sent to the hospital. he just got discharged recently, and now he's back there again; mummy said that he couldn't move at all after the fall.
things are pretty bad for him, waiting for the maid to come soon. so she can help out with everything, especially my poor mum.
as you know gonggong's(father's side) also admitted to the hospital, so my mom's like a mad woman now. must run up and down, all over the place to do visiting and the taking care of. but my brother say gonggong probably can discharge tomorrow or the day after, gonna go visit him preferably tomorrow. (:
i wanna go shopping!! there're some stuffs that i MUST buy, like eyeliner, my office wears etc.
gotta force myself to sleep soon, 'cause i dozed off for an hour and a half just now while watching tv. it's raining outside, hopefully i'll fall asleep and dream a sweet dream. @
1:17 AM
Sunday, October 21, 2007
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9:44 PM
why? am i always being misunderstood by people? am i always so nice to everyone? am i such a pushover?
there are never ending questions about why.
i'm upset. i know everything's never been fair in any way, all along. i've accepted it, but why do i have to suffer for it?
it seems to all that i've caused it to happened, and i'd never fight back for anything. i don't know how to say 'no', and i'm afraid i'll hurt others.
so i give in all the time, even if it meant hurting myself; so as to make someone happy and all, i'll take it down on my own.
i'm tired, of myself, of relationships, of everything.
sometimes i feel as if i couldn't breathe, too many things weighing me down. and i do wanna give up at times, but i felt like i just couldn't leave things behind.
it's the emotions being blackmailed, for far too long. and it's taking a huge toll.
'nuff of ramblings. just hope that the front i'm putting up wouldn't give way. Solitary. @
9:40 PM
&& so the phone chat with Andy lasted for 3 hours plus, hang up at about 6 plus this morning. was bombarded with phonecalls since 7am!!!
dang, you people should thank God that i didn't blow my top; 'cause sleeping is my SEX! i dozed off after each calls, and finally wake up at 10 plus.
met him for lunch from 12.30pm-2pm, then to bugis to meet Andy. sat at starbucks and people watch, went to the arcade to catch stitch; but mission failed. ):
i think Andy's looking more like stitch! he looks at them before and after sleep; just like me, i'm afraid i'll look like stitch too. =/
supposed to head for coffee session at plaza singapura, but gonggong had a fall and is in hospital, so gotta rush home to babysit my youngest brother; while the other one go to look after gonggong. and mummy's out for her dance class.
tomorrow's the first day of work!!! i'm having mixed feelings, kinda excited and dreading it at the same time. hahas.
pray that i can force myself to sleep early, and wake up on time. gonna go out for a while later; hopefully it wouldn't be long.
the last two peektures are michael and me;