Thursday, April 24, 2008
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6:49 PM
_Feelings Show by Colbie Caillat_You told meYou'd wait here patiently butI wonder if he's kiddingWell maybe he could be serious nowMaybe notMaybe notBecause'Love is crazyPretty babyTake it real slowMy feelings showAll you have to doIs never ever let it goMy feelings showAnd I want you to knowI'm sorry it's taking me so longTo find out what I'm feelingI wonder if it will come to meMaybe notMaybe notBecause'Love is crazyPretty babyTake it real slowMy feelings showAll you have to Is never ever let it goMy feelings showAnd I want you to knowMy feelings showI want you to knowWhat I'm trying to say is thatI'm feeling a change andI'll let it take all overIf you need time awayI won't ask you to stayBut I don't want to lose youLove is crazyPretty babyTake it real slowMy feelings showAll you have to doIs never ever let it goMy feelings showLove is crazyPretty babyTake it real slowMy feelings showAll you have to doIs never ever let it goMy feelings showAnd I want you to knowMy feelings showNever ever let it goMy feelings showNever ever let it goMy feelings showNever ever let it goMy feelings show
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6:44 PM
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
I LOVE HIM. I MISS HIM. I NEED HIM. I WANT HIM. ALWAYS.
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1:51 AM
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
- I'm determined to be a happy girl again. :D
everything seems to quiet down already. i guess everyone's being sick and tired of everything, of me. no one seems to bother anymore, except for those really nice ones. i've already sent out invites for my birthday, hope everything would go well. though it's just about 2 weeks away, i ain't feeling excited or anything about it. it'll prolly be just another day.i yearn for things to be like how it just started. i'm actually feeling a bit unloved, I'M SORRY. i don't wish to force anybody to do anything or push limits anymore. i need to tone down, to hide away. and no, this is no emo post. i'm not emo, i'm relieve now. (:
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5:10 PM
Monday, April 14, 2008
no one understand. all the hurt, all the pain. the tears that flow, nobody pays attention. i'm invisible, i'm making my way out of the scene. i need what i deserve. i'm going away, try holding me back if you can.
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4:11 PM
- a hug is badly needed for, a real tight one.
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2:14 AM
now is one of those times that i feel like blogging, so totally. 'cause this is the only place that i could ever turn to.
i'm sorry baby. i know that after reading this entry, you'd prolly text me or something and ask what's wrong. there's nothing wrong, just cranky again. and you're sleeping already, there's work tomorrow. no reason for me to disrupt you, furthermore you've been lacking of rest.
i really feel fat. spell F.A.T, FAT!!! i need to work out, but i'm just so lazy. fuck all the excuses shit!! i'm seriously going to cut down on my intake. diet!!! i've never felt so fat before!!! i'm losing myself!!
and i get pissed very easily nowadays. i don't know what's wrong. i'm like sorta running away all the time. it sucks!!! why am i like this?! how i wish i could just vanish from this place. there's not really anything to reminisce about. =/
hate the insomnia!! i can't sleep!! it happens nearly every night!! i'm so upset that i could cry now, really. ): i'm feel so stressed up!! i don't know what to do, i'm lost!!! i don't wanna be in this picture anymore!
that's how i feel about life. it feels as if i'm the only 'real' person in this space, all the others are just imaginary beings. we're like characters of a story. there's a writer, prolly he's God. we're what he made out, and being control of.
the angels are looking, we're acting. it's really tiring. i don't wanna go on anymore. let things end here. shoot me, hang me, whatever. just get me out. ):
damn it. i don't know what to blog about. it's the emotions again. i've gotta go to office tomorrow, to send my door card back. i've yet to blog about my sentosa trip yesterday too. but somehow i just can't make things fall in place now.
i should just quit whining and mind my own business.
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1:35 AM
Friday, April 11, 2008
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4:21 AM
couldn't get to sleep, so i watched step up 2 (it's been downloaded for a long long time already) and got some photos edited. :D uploaded some of them on ma friendster too. been some time yo~
there're still plenty of clips for me to go through, but i'm simply lazy. and spent most of the time sleeping or chatting. goodness me!~ *smack forehead*
i wanna go to the library!! need to read!!! my language is failing me, like seriously. ): shall head out to get books soon. (:
thinking of pampering myself for a bit. ages since i had the nails session, thinking and planning if i could do it tomorrow. and perhaps throwing in a high tea would be good too. *flies to cloud nine*
to the sentosa island on saturday if everything goes well. with aiai and flurry sweetheart. been 2 weeks (if bryan's right) since i've a tan. just a little bit more to go alrights? then i'll be fine with the tone. ;)
what comes next is, the fats must go!! i've gotta be determined and perserve, tone down!! self confidence's running low, and seemed to have outgrown quite some clothes. it's a bad bad thing!!! 5 kgs to go first then more? heees.
and it's like less than a month to my birthday. i'm so upset, i've got nothing in mind. ): guess i'll just have a simple dinner just like any other day with some friends and family then sleep the day off.
sighs. i don't wish to talk about friendship at the moment. it'd just been too hard to bear.
good night everyone. i'm gonna try to turn in already. have a great day ahead, and a blasted weekend! :D
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4:08 AM
Wednesday, April 09, 2008
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8:13 PM
keel the flu bug!!! argh~~
not working today again. BOOS! can't seem to motivate myself these days. bah! i dont know what's wrong with me. i'm going to make an appointment with the institute of metal health and check it out. i'm scared though.
but no choice, i've got to get myself treated. then those around me, would have a much better life. cos i'm always $^&%^(&()(^%^#. especially these few days, and i dont think baby can take it any longer. =/
it's wednesday night again!! YAY!! that spells H I A O - D A Y!!! hees. gonna go to zouk mambo!! lalas~
last but not least,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST MIKE-Y!! :D
miss you! *hugs*
hope you enjoy your day!! ;)
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8:06 PM
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
-the ironic life.
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11:37 PM
finally painted my nails after so so long. shimmer pink, i want the shade of red!! how i love it~ woolala~
uh huh, i went for my training. (: an events company, i'm back to doing events again!! still prefer to go back to something that i'm specialised in and enjoy doing. I LOVE EVENTS!!! heees.
though it's not like the previous events that i used to do; those bashes etc. this time, it's corporate events; like dinner and dance, family day and on. cool ain't it? lalas~
yesterday was the first day of training, it went pretty well. the basics which i'm revising through, going at a fine smooth speed. gotta do presentation the next day though, just after the first day. lols. trying to test my abilities, but guess i'm a little rusty. =/
thank God training was cancelled today! i'm so not ready for it! :P
and so, i went back to sleep after my mom head out. it was errands day for me, gotta collect my certificate from the ministry of education and my bag from charles and keith. these've been waiting too long for me!! and how i miss my baggy~ :D
met up with a friend who took a cab to pick me up and bring me to MOE. then we went on to holland village to slack. had thai express and some chatting. managed to got online through the wireless@sg. afterwhich, went to nydc for dessert.
and i'm looking into holland village to become my hangout place. it's always those few places to go to when heading out. all're getting bored already, so a change of place would be good! (:
it was also a eating day~ had so much food. subway at jurong point was for dins. met up with alan, andy, serene and flurry. crapped way too much and i got into the damn hyper mood. those sinful sugary things i've consumed all the cause!! :P
and jeremy was nice enough to give me a lift home before sending andy back. while the rest make their own way home by the tube or bus.
i'm feeling lazy!! DAMNNIT!! i need to slap myself awake!! grrr!!!
gonna go into office tomorrow. work hard work hard work hard!!! i need a job!!! BADLY.
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11:19 PM
Sunday, April 06, 2008
-the forgotten friendship.
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9:10 PM
don't know what's got into mummy early in the morning. she's effing irritating, keep making noise about any thing that she sets her eyes on. it's like no one's offended her, and she shooting her mouth off. ruined everyone's morning. -.-
we're waiting for daddy to come pick us up in a while, hence to waste time do nothing, i've come to blog.(: daddy's finally home after another week, and it's a super long week!!! i miss him, i miss being his lil' girl, i wanna whine and hug and kiss him like i used to. ):
was out with aiai yesterday, to bugis. headed to siam kitchen to fill our stomachs first as we're hungry, then andy arrived shortly after we finished our meal and when i was trimming my brows. i swear!!! i'll go back to clementi for my threading, and not go to those brow trimming services i'm not sure of. grrrr~ my brows weird. ):
walked around bugis street, felt so lost! there're lots of people and lots of things, don't know where to start with!! so we went on to OG. there, this place is where we could walk and shop around. hahas. looked at the bags and stuffs, they're having sale. bought candies home, saw the pocky crush. tempted to buy it!! but it's like expensive~ 7 packs for $6, about 14 sticks all together.
it rained while we're going over to sim lim square. aiai and me was like noobs!! computer is just a computer, as long as can use and not complicated, it's fine. baby brought us around and we merely just follow. looked around and off we go.
andy and i headed to plaza singapura for our dins while aiai head home to prepare to go out with her brother. walked all the way from sim lim there, though it's not far, but my leg hurts a bit from jalan jalan in sim lim square. lols.
KFC for dinner. it's goddamnpacked la!!! luckily we got a seat kinda shortly after we got in, and then baby went queue to order our food. i was keeping a look out for other seats, as i felt uncomfy sitting in the middle with everyone walking about.
decided to go home as there's no plans. the day rounded up to be pretty well, just a lil' upset with the friendship between some people. i dont think they regards me as friends by the way they act though.
it was disheartening to get those kind of attitude from people whom you take as friends. it's felt as if i owe you something and that enables you to talk to me in that manner. get it right girls, i don't owe anything and i dont appreciate the attitude. stop giving excuses too.
just admit that the distance is visible and it cannot be maintain one-sided-ly. i'm very very disappointed. no one was there, no one knew anything. i tried my best but i guess it wasn't enough. and all just moved further away. hah.
maybe i had done something wrong, i did gave thoughts about making up; building the friendship back. but it all couldn't be done by me alone. till yesterday, i gave thoughts about it. but to have been given that kind of attention, i'm unsure.
'nuff said, i'm tired already. go ahead and criticise me.
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11:46 AM
Saturday, April 05, 2008
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3:55 AM
sorry, i'm being a bitch again.
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3:54 AM
Wednesday, April 02, 2008
-overdue-d photo shoot from last year's christmas. and gosh i look FAT! ):
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1:43 PM
Tuesday, April 01, 2008
happy April's fool day~ i know i'm a day late, inconstancy blogging nowadays. heees. and so, did any of y'all got tricked or tricked someone? hope it's enjoyable. (:
been lazy to update. sorry people!! i'll try to overcome that laziness and blog more aye? lols.
i didn't go for the reschedule orientation with dreamworks last week again! last minute the stupid tummy acted up again. ): poor andy, gotta rushed to my place from work and make sure i'm ok till philbert came over to go to the doctor with me. how nice are they.(:
there was the bodyshop warehouse sale over the weekend!!! and i spent tons of moolahs there! or to say, not i spend la. hees. darling paid for my grabs. isn't he sweeeeettttt? *muacks*
sweetheart went with me too. but it was the last day, so not much stocks left. how upsetting. and there're alot of people pushing around, damn hard to move around to look at things la. still i enjoyed myself. one step closer to being an auntie! =/
wanted to get a pair of heels, but it's not in good shape. so, forget it! on a lighter note, grandma fixed my heels!!! i'm so happy!! and afterall, my shoes' not stolen. mummy just brought it over to grandma's for repair. scare me!!! :P
brought my bag to jurong point's charles and keith for repair, ate and went home on monday. it's not a fruitful day. one of my friend's friend got fined $200 for flicking her cigarette butt on the floor. so close~
i brought back a bagful of sweets worth $30 from the arcade!!! heees. the plushie i got is so cute too. baby says of course it's cute as i got it on my own. was so happy la~
and well, yesterday was waffles day. my long waited waffles day~ whhhheeeee....
went to meet some people from irc. noisy bunch of kids. =/ and we went to suntec's gelare. regular waffle with whipped cream and chocolate topped with 3 scopes of all white chocolate ice cream. sounds yummy aye?!?!
after that, made a move with alan and andy to the arcade again! PLAYGROUND. :D brought back another stitch and 5 mini stitches. i've counted, i've got 5 mini stitches, 1 angel and 8 stitches!!! how cool right?!?! whole display cupboard filled with plushies. heees. mum's gonna make a hell of noise already if she sees it. =/
next monday, i'm going for training at an events company. looking forward to it, and of course i hope it turns out well la~ 3 days with allowance, last day'll be appraisal day. woots!~ wish me luck.
today's wednesday again. i'm comtemplating where to go. it's my official hiao day. (:
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3:36 PM
no one understand. all the hurt, all the pain. the tears that flow, nobody pays attention. i'm invisible, i'm making my way out of the scene. i need what i deserve. i'm going away, try holding me back if you can.
