I've been awake for a while now.
You got me feelin' like a child now.
'Cause every time I see your bubbly face,
I get the tinglees in a silly place.
It starts at my toes.
And I crinkle my nose.
Wherever it goes, I always know,
That you make me smile.
Please stay for a while now.
Just take your time,
Wherever you go.
The rain is fallin' on my window pane,
But we are hidin' in a safer place.
Under covers stayin' dry and warm.
You give me feelings that I adore.
It start at my toes.
Makes me crinkle my nose.
Wherever it goes I always know,
That you make me smile.
Please stay for a while now.
Just take your time,
Wherever you go.
What am I gonna say,
When you make me feel this way?
I just... mmm.
And It starts at my toes.
Makes me crinkle my nose.
Wherever it goes I always know,
That you make me smile.
Please stay for a while now.
Just take your time,
Wherever you go.
Da da da da da da da da da da
Oo da doo doo doo doo dumm
Uu oom ba doom ba doo da doo da boo da doo da doo da dumm
Mm mm mm
I've been asleep for a while now.
You tuck me in just like a child now.
'Cause every time you hold me in your arms,
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth.
It starts at my soul,
And I lose all control.
When you kiss my nose,
The feeling shows.
'Cause you make me smile.
Baby, just take your time now,
Holdin' me tight.
Wherever, wherever, wherever you go.
Wherever, wherever, wherever you go.
Ooo... Wherever you go.
I always know.
'Cause you make smile.
Even just for a while.
Friday, February 08, 2008
this post is dedicated to my most beloved GongGong; Chua Jin Teck who passed away on 08/02/2008 at 18.31pm.
thank you for the times you've spent with the family, thank you for taking good care of the family, thank you for the joy that you've brought us, thank you for everything gonggong.
we used to live together before my family moved to jurong. you've always dote on me a lot, and i'm also very sticky to you. sometimes in the night, i'll sleep with you in the living room if my parents are on night shift. i remember that you'll always pat me to sleep, and if i can't fall asleep, you'll sing the dialect rhymes and pray to the gods that i'll be able to have a good rest.
i would always follow you to the market for your breakfast and sit under the void deck to chat with your friends. you would always buy candies and snack for my cousins and me. you would always call home to ask if we're hungry and want supper when you're out drinking. it's always the nice and delicious pork/chicken chop and fishball noodles that you'll buy for the family.
you'd love to play with your poker cards, and you do it every night. you'd love to bet on horse racing and soccer matches too. not forgetting you'd drink two bottles of tiger beer before you go to bed every night.
you cried and plead with my mum to allow me to stay with you and granny on the day we moved out. you would buy food and snacks whenever you come to visit, but that didn't last for a long time. and we couldn't go to visit you much 'cause we're still young and mummy doesn't feel safe.
before you had that terrible fall, you would always cycle to bendemeer and all around to visit your friends and all. the family would always know that you're home by hearing the noise you make from spitting at the stairs on the way up to home. it's become a habit for you to spit on the stairs outside the house.
after that incident, you couldn't walk properly and your health starts to fail. but you're still as strong as ever, and you'd never allow the family to be worried for you.
you were being hospitalised for a few times for the past months but could go home after a few days. you're doing great at home, just that you need the aid of a walking stick.
2 weeks ago, we admitted you into the hospital for a thorough check up, and you're discharged after 2 days. but 2 days later, you're sent to the hospital again because you're passing out blood. everyone was very worried, why didn't you tell when you feel that your body is not well? why do you always keep everything to yourself? why did you think that the family wouldn't be worried if you bottom everything up?
if granny didn't happen to help you out the other day, the family wouldn't have known that there's something wrong with your body. your intestines were already very weak when the doctors tried to insert the tube in from your anal to check where in your body is bleeding. unfortunately, it burst a little and you have to go for an emergency operation.
at that time, you're still very strong headed. you acted all brave and heck care when the others were worried sick. you said that there's nothing to be afraid and you'll be fine. the doctors couldn't put the intestine back cause they're too weak already, thus they took away the rotten parts.
after your operation, you're always in a drowsy mode. you didn't had anything to eat since the day you're admitted, and now you're on drip with only 500ml of water a day. it pains me a lot to see you suffering.
before you got into a coma after your operation, whenever i'm there to visit you, you were always saying random things. you'd even asked me why am i there to visit you when you're dead, and i shouldn't cry. amongst the cousins, you've always dote on me the most.
a lot of people came to visit you, all were so upset to see you lay there and just sleep all the time. we didn't know what we can do, and our heart aches just so much. you couldn't move to anything, there were no response from you most of the time. but we never gave up, and so do you. thank you for fighting till your last breath,gonggong.
i remember when i was still young, whenever my mother vents her anger on me, you'd take me away and soothes me. you had never scolded or lay your hands on anyone. you're always so kind and loving to everyone. everyone loves you and cares for you, there were no enemies for you.
the family were there to visit you everyday,to talk to you,to wet your lips and await you to open your eyes. but you never did, why didn't you see us for the last time before you go? you'd waited till the second day of new year and for all of us to arrive but why didn't you open your eyes and talk to us for the last time?!
the family was fighting back the tears and grief 'cause we're all afraid that you would not go in peace. afraid that you would be worried for us and not go in peace. but we're glad that you'd gone in peace, you even had a little smile on your face.
GongGong. Rest in peace, the family are all grown up and will take good care of themselves. don't be worried, daddy God's here for you already, go with Him. He'll take you away to a very beautiful place where there wouldn't be sufferings and you'll be able to walk and run like you used to. take care gonggong, do watch over the family. we'll always remember you and love you.
