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Thursday, November 29, 2007

woots!
it's already thursday today!
so fast!!

there'll be photo shoot tomorrow.
i can foresee it'll be alot of fun!
hopefully will be able to snap lotsa nice pictures!
anticipating~

yesterday was wednesday,
and it's st james as usual.
wasn't fun at all but something interesting happened.

this 2 girls wanted to teach my friend and I a lesson.
they were like ah lians lo,
*roll eyes*

glad to have people whom i didn't know stood out for us.
andy was so worried that he left zouk to come and look for us,
such a nice stitchy man!
=/

alrights,
i gotta get back to work to sort out my papers;
needa bring work home to do.
):

luckily it's not much though.
hope to have an early night later.
catch winks during lunchers just now.
tatas~

@ 5:48 PM

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

@ 1:28 PM

I am AnaBelle Jolyn.
I am beautiful, intelligent and I can get anything I want.

my name;
AnaBelle Jolyn;
naming after my mum,
and bringing joy to all.

i love my name!
:D

and i love you too!

@ 1:20 PM

@ 12:58 AM

I'm on MC today!!
evil gastric!
):

was out the whole day.
went to get my brows done before heading to the doctors,
then to jurong point to get my nails painted.
(:

ended up burning a hole in my pocket!
bought a package for nails
gonna pass it to mummy to use.
christmas prezzie!!

took a bus to town to meet andy,
met mikey on the bus.
GOT ANOTHER STITCH AGAIN!!

now i've got 5 stitches in total!
I LOVE STITCH!!!
:D

they're all from andy!!!
lalas~

had a very very heavy dinner!
so full that i can't get up from my seat la.
ate fried kway tiao,fries, chicken wings and fishballs!!

my appetite's growing!
it's so scary,
i can eat more than the guys.
HOHOHO~

took a long walk,
help in digesting!
and ended up at SKY!
stayed a while then home sweet home~

didn't go see the audi cars outside the museum.
andy said there was nothing,
so sad la.
wanted to go catch a glimpse of it de.

but never mind la.
the company of the guys were great enough!
(:

oh,
as for last sunday.
brought my dog to pet station but!
the groomer went home already,
so no choice,
gotta go another day.

takeaway sakae sushi,
nice nice~
but too salty!
=/

and monday was work.
the blues~

it's wednesday tomorrow already!
the official 'hiao' day for andy!!
LOLS.
prehaps me too.
:P

looking forward to friday!
meeting andy and mikey again,
taking pictures!
wooolala~

Do you feel the way i do?

@ 12:42 AM

Sunday, November 25, 2007

my room is clean and tidy!!!
i'm a good girl!!!
:D

woke up near 4pm just now,
supposed to be up earlier to bring my dog to the groomer,
but had a late night yesterday;
thus couldn't get up.

but!
i'm going to bring him to the groomer later,
then meeting mike for sakae sushi at jurong point,
hopefully follow by grocery shopping.
(:

wednesday was ladies night at st james was great!
i enjoyed it alot,
not much caucasians to push around with.
just the transexuals.

last night was st james for me too!
but not that fun,
met a few friends here and there.

the place is ultra packed,
first time seeing super long queues there.

had a stayover on friday!
it was awesome!!!
wheee~

ended up didn't go to alan's place,
switched to my place;
'cause xiaowei and bf with peilin's coming over!

I HEARTS STAYOVERS!!!
more more!!
:D

so there were 5 guys and 3 girls,
andy went to bed early,
leaving the other guys to play mahjong,
while the girls were chatting away till morning!

everyone went off in the morning,
except andy!
slacked the whole saturday away.

till it was time to go to andy's place,
for him to change;
eat and head down to st james.

I love those who love me!

@ 5:43 PM

Friday, November 23, 2007

fiaking heels!
first time wearing it,
and it gave way.
damn it.

not gonna buy heels from that shop anymore,
cheap material.
value for it,
*puke*

had a busy day at work today.
boss's pushing everything to me again,
but luckily no events to go to tonight.
'cause of my heels!!

legs hurts too!
):

argh!
headache!

BAD DAY!!

hope later would be better.
meeting the guys;
andy,michael and alan,
4 person de house party.

LOLS.

alrights.
it's 6.30pm already,
gonna go off;
to central!

shopping!!
i did that during lunch too!

taitai therapy!!
gimme some time,
i'm back again!!
:D

@ 6:18 PM

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

@ 4:27 PM

yoooooohhhooooooooo~
i feel good~
feeling all good now~
i feel good~
so good so good~

lalas~

thanks to those who showed their care and concern;
especially twin towers,
most importantly beloved!!!
:D

yesterday was a funny day.
i had some fear in me,
but on the other hand;
i felt as if a burden's been lifted off.

hmmmms.
well,
i felt great yesterday.
'cause it celebrates my freedom,
back to myself!!!

WOOTS!!

i feel loved!
the actions, the words and everything;
from everyone!

work's going pretty fine for me,
boss's been giving me a lot of assignments,
and even wants me to attend events on herself.

though it's a little too much,
i'm glad that i've got this job.
(:

okays.
i'm off to process my cards already!
and it's wednesday today!!!
whheeeee~

Reason to wake up everyday.

@ 4:09 PM

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

it hurts,
hurts so badly.
my head hurts,
tummy hurts and heart aches.

i'm sorry,
i'm not strong afterall.
but give me time,
i'll overcome it and move on.

i'm upset with myself,
for falling so deep into this shit.
and now,
there's a fear in me.

i don't dare to give any further,
i'm tired,
i'm afriad of getting wounded again.
i can't bear any nonsenses anymore.

it'd made me scared;
of everyone,
especially guys.

i'd always wish that i would be as special to my guy as he is to me, it'd never been that way. now it's better to be love than loving.

@ 11:14 AM

Monday, November 19, 2007

@ 12:55 AM

it's tough,
it really is.
tougher than i thought it was.

but i'm sure,
i'm strong.
i'll move on,
and it'll be over in my head before i know it.

actually it didn't feel any much different;
just like any other days.
just that the fact that we've really parted our ways,
maybe it's because we've grown to be used to each other,
to see each other etc.

this isn't going to happen anymore.
we're going on our own ways now,
it's no longer us anymore,
it's you and me;
different individuals.

pardon me for the random emo posts.
it's only going to go on for a short period,
i'll get over it soon.
thanks for understanding.

There're no memories of us, for us to keep.

@ 12:34 AM

Sunday, November 18, 2007

@ 8:57 PM

I'M BEGINNING A NEW PHRASE OF LIFE,
GOTTA GO MY OWN WAY.
(:

@ 8:49 PM

it wasn't an easy decision to make.
i feared you;
your actions and everything about you.
i didn't dare to tell you how i actually feel.

chances were given countless of times,
nothing improved,
things only snowballed and got worse each time.

please do not do anything that'll make me go softhearted again,
and i guess this time round,
i wouldn't give any thoughts about it;
i'm firm in my stand.

yes,
i still do misses you;
those time that we shared,
but i believe i can overcome all these.
so do you,
and you'd prolly do it like the snapping of fingers.

let's just not waste each other's time any further,
none of us were happy together.
all the plans that we made,
it's not going to come true;
in the past, now or future.

i've in fact,
long given up hope.
i was never important to you,
i meant nothing to you.

i didn't know why i'd still gave you chances after chances,
when you've done shit to me.
the humiliations, cheating and lies,
even bedding and bringing girls home.

i dont know what was going on in my mind.
thank God,
i'm out of that now.

3 more days to anniversary,
this is the best solution to the relationship.
i wish the best for you,
there wouldn't be me obstructing you in anyways anymore,
and you'll be better off with other girls.

i'm just not the one for you,
never was,never is and never gonna be.
we're just too different.

i'll be here;
nothing more than a friend if you need me.
and stop the nonsense you're doing to me,
that's all enough already.

Take good care of the little ones, my once love.

@ 8:05 PM

Thursday, November 15, 2007

HEY!
stop looking at the girls up on the podium as if they're some animals from the zoo.
especially those guys who looks as if they're deprieved of anything;
watching the girls like they've never seen one before.
so wanna slap their heads off their shoulders la.

and stop thinking that you guys are so great alright,
you can't get all the girls one la.
and some girls just wouldn't bite the bait.
not all girls are so free and easy.

BASKET.
st james was horrible last night,
not the usual DJ.
crowd was not too good too,
and not to say the dance.

yawns.
i'm at work now.
been chatting so much online;
kinda distracted from my work.

but i'm still diligent la,
i'll bring home my work to do;
so i can finish them on time.
(:

YAY!!!
andy's back,
no more emails to send.
mike,andy and me can hang out more already!

but mike's going to the states in about 1 month's time,
for his studies.
no worries,
i can still pester him through lotsa ways de.
wahahahahas.

feel like sleeping ah!!!
must rush my work for today,
i foresee body-aches.
):

I'm too tired to make things right already.

@ 10:22 AM

Monday, November 12, 2007

@ 5:36 AM

IT'S TIME FOR CELEBRATION!!!!

my grandfather's wake just ended.
thanks to those who came for the wake,
sent their condolences and messages.
i appreciate them,
reallly.
(:

quite a crowd was there to send my grandfather off,
uncle's church mates had to carry the coffin.
it was heartbreaking parting with grandpa.

had flashbacks of him when he was alive,
the times all of us spent together.
those were the times,
and there wouldn't be anymore.
):

grandpa, Lim Moi Kia was cremated at mandai 11th Nov 2007 at 1.30pm,
some family members are going to collect the urn later;
at 9am.
doubt i'll be going though,
'cause i had a tough night.

why did i say that it's time for celebration?
it's because i've finally removed the thorn in my life.
it was all the unhappiness and nothing else,
but i guess it's really time for relief.

thank God it's kinda of a right timing,
'cause i've given up hope totally,
didn't know how to break it.

yet,
was thinking of giving another try;
another chance.
but this had to happen.

all the nonsense,
all the bullshit.
i'm outta it!

i'm ashamed of myself,
to have spent so much;
time, money, love and all.
i should have listened.

sighs.

It should have been ended.

@ 5:03 AM

Wednesday, November 07, 2007

i'm blogging on my dad's laptop at my grandfather's wake now.
everything's fine,
don't worry everyone.

he passed away gracefully this morning at 4.46am,
my mum, 2 aunts and step-grandmother was there to see him go.

i thank God that he had freed my granddad from these pain he's suffering from,
and now he's gone to somewhere where he'll be at peace and all good.

last night i headed to look after granddad straight after work,
and went home near midnight.
he was really frail,
he'd stopped breathing a few times and that meant his heart stopped too.

when he resume breathing,
i thank God for letting him breathe again,
but yet i pray that God would take him away soon enough too.
to end all the misery.

he laid there in bed,
couldn't move nor speak;
it pains everyone who sees him in that state.
i couldn't hold back my tears when i enter the room,
seeing him reaching out his hand to me.

the wake will be held at;
bukit panjang, jelapang rd, blk 507.
gimme a call if you're coming, thank you.

all's well.
rest in peace Grandfather,
we'll all remember you.
(:

@ 3:11 PM

@ 12:34 AM

i wouldn't be blogging constant for this time being.
i'll be very busy,
unless i've got free time on hand during work;
then i might blog.

after work,
i've gotta spend time with my granddad.
he's in a critical condition now,
must take really good care of him.

first day of work today's pretty fine,
did quite some paper work.
since it's the start,
it's still a tad bit interesting to me.

i hope i'll get the hold of things soon enough,
and i hope that i can work for a longer period there than the others.
work's not that difficult after all,
if you get used to everything.

i'm doing some chores before i go to bed for now,
there're 3 batches of clothes to be washed.

gotta wake up at 7.30am tomorrow and prepare for work,
head out at 8.30am.

sweet dreams everyone,good night.

@ 12:27 AM

Monday, November 05, 2007

@ 9:50 PM

there're lots of things i wanna blog about,
but i just can't pinpoint all of it out.
i don't know what can i do about all these;
that's bottling up in me.

it's very heart breaking,
and it upsets me alot.

i appreciated those who stood up for me,
thanks loves.
(:

and my right ear bled just now,
prolly because i accidentaally scratched it.

anyway.
today's 8 interviews got cut down to only 1.
'cause i'm a lazy girl,
and there're a lot of places i didn't know how to get to.

so i skipped all and only went for the one in the noon.
the interview lasted more than an hour;
with the waiting and process.

i thought that it was horrible;
and i couldn't get the job.
but who knows when i walked out of that door;
the interviewer called me back.

at first she told me that she needs to think it over;
for a day or two.
i was having some bad feelings towards that statement.

whoooo~
hey!
i've got a job again!!
(:

i'll be working at liang court,
as an admin assistant in a car grooming company.
i'm sorta looking forward to it,
'cause it's different from what i've been doing.

just afraid that i'll be hard at first,
i shall grit my teeth and pull it through.
ain't gonna hold a job for short term anymore,
comeon',
be hardworking girl!

might be heading out to drink with some friends later,
gonna try how it's like to get oh-so-wasted.

NO!
i can't!
damn,
gonna start working tomorrow!
):

oh wells.
i'll just wait for the weekends then.

What's your definition?

@ 9:15 PM

Saturday, November 03, 2007

@ 5:28 PM

i've stopped working at the call center,
terminated my contract yesterday noon.
my superior had too high expectations of me,
and it's too tough, too stressful.

we had a talk before i terminate my contract,
both came to the same conclusion,
and we have the same frequency;
thus it wasn't difficult to break it.

Andy called on thursday!!!
i blardy missed his CALLS on wednesday!!!!
dumb me!
to think that i was waiting so badly to hear from him,
and await his return.

he said that he'll most probably come back on the 14th,
and he doesn't want to see me at the airport.
'cause it'll be too late,
and prehaps jasmine would go pick him up.
hahas.

i've schdueled 8 interviews on monday,
1 on tuesday and gonna make more calls out on monday;
gotta got a new job soon!
if not my mum's gonna scream her head off,
and twist my head off.
=/

did some cleaning around the house;
washed the floors, sweep the floors,
do my laundry, fold the clothes etc.

feeling productive now!
gonna go talk to mikey on the phone already!
byebye!

& connie,
if you're reading;
I MISS YOU,SISTER!!!!
(:

@ 4:45 PM

Thursday, November 01, 2007

@ 2:27 PM

skipped work again today!
hahas.

and i went to St James Powerhouse last night,
some people's just so gonna kill me,
and chop my head off.
=/

didn't really had fun last night though,
but i made a new friend,
his name is Ben.
(:

he's so nice,
gave me a lift home on his bike.
and it's damn cooling to ride in the rain at night!

oh,
we didn't met at the club,
we met in IRC!
hahas.

got home,
slept at 6am till 8am.
madness yo!

gonna go consult a doctor later,
and get a MC!

i don't see myself working in this company for long,
probably after this 1 month trial,
i'm not going there anymore.

so that means,
gotta look out for more job offers already!!!
=/

Too little,too late and the long wait.

@ 12:35 PM